Let's Play Catch With My Heart

Don’t you just love the curveballs life constantly throws at you? I had another one thrown at me this morning, which I caught in trepidation and will in fact hold on to. The only thing I ask for is that things be different this time because I’m tired of being proven that my heart is worth breaking.

Tetris in Japan

This is how they play tetris in Japan and it is beyond hilarious. Watch it because you will not be disappointed!

Speechless

Apparently I have nothing to blog about if I'm not experiencing an oh-so-awful break-up or haven't seen the latest Hollywood "blockbuster." I could ask for another break-up or a new movie but I'll only get one of the two. It would be the latter, mind you, because I don't foresee myself becoming involved in anyone (or anything) anytime soon. Also, Transformers comes out in a few days, which I'll see because I watched the animated series as a child... and won't be talking about. Not in this entry anyway.

So, the free cupcake goes to whomever guesses which song these lyrics is from:

"Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
Do you know?"

Mmm, well, I get the cupcake.

My siblings and I have been obsessed with Enrique Iglesias' 'Do You Know (Ping Pong Song)' because we couldn't understand what he's singing and we were baffled by the title. I finally decided to Google the lyrics and find out why it's called the 'Ping Pong Song.' There's the lyrics (it was the first line we couldn't decipher), and it's named so because in the beginning of the song and more surreptiously so throughout the rest of the song there is a beat of a ping pong ball bouncing back and forth.

'Table tennis' is the proper name but I guess it's more amusing to use 'ping pong.'

Psychedelic?!

A dabble in experimentation; it's not the type of art I normally do nor have I done anything "artsy" in a very long time. It's a mix of acrylics, watercolour, and pens, and a lot of what you see are what I tend to doodle when I'm bored.

Meh!

(Watermark isn't on the original piece.)

To Double Major Or To Not...

...that is the question!

I'm torn between double majoring in Economics and International Affairs (IA) and majoring in only one of them. Although I think I only feel this way because Calculus is a requirement for an Economics major and... I have to write two thesis' in one year. If it weren't for either of those (extremely intimidating) reasons there would be no doubts about a double major.

In a nutshell, this is how erratic I am:

• What are the benefits of a double major anyway?
• I really enjoy Economics and IA.
• I'm nearly done with my IA major requirements and I'm done with my Economics minor requirements. Why not just major in IA and minor in Economics?
• There's no IA minor but there is an Economics minor option.
• What are the benefits of a degree in IA? It seems like a degree in Economics would be more beneficial.
• Economics degree => Job in an office cubicle with some company? IA degree => Job in rural third-world Asia with an NGO? I really want the latter...

I have no clue on what I want, and I need to figure it out soon before I take too many Economics courses (read: Calculus) if I decide to take Economics as a minor instead, stress myself out even more, and write two thesis'.

Help!(?)

Clarity Revealed

Clarity has revealed itself to me thereby restoring my sanity and sensibility. (Thank God.) I finally think and feel that I am okay, and that I am finally free from the burdensome thoughts and emotions that have been weighing me down.

I haven't spoken to him for a few days and that, along with the natural healing remedy of time, has made all the difference. I seldom think of him in the same longing and loving manner allowing me to focus on--as horribly cliche as this may sound--living my life to the fullest.

What all my tomorrows have in store for me truly excites me. The prospect of experimenting with my pragmatic ways. Remembering that I do have wonderful friends who do sincerely care about me. Taking advantage of all my extracurricular, scholastic, and vocational opportunities. Knowing that I'll someday find someone who deserves me and loves me the way I'll deserve and love him. These are only a morself of my reasons for all this excitement.

I feel happy and renewed, and it's a fantastic sensation.

Sipping Girly Drinks By The Beach

The plans for the beach trip with four amazing people are finally coming together. Nearly everything is booked, and I say 'nearly' because we're leaving several aspects of our trip unplanned for a bit of adventure! Sometimes spontaneity and small adventures are needed.

With my gold aviator sunglasses and white bikini I'm all set to have some fun!

More Movies

I watched 'Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer' this afternoon and although it wasn't the most fantastic sequel it was a pretty decent movie both on its own and in comparison to the first one. I'll probably post my reviews and some spoilers of 'Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer' tomorrow. We'll see. One thing's for sure though--the Silver Surfer doesn't have that large of a role in the movie.

I've been watching a lot of movies lately. It's probably because so many come out during the summer but it makes up for rarely going out to watch new movies when I'm busy pursuing a degree in higher education. Haha. Anyway, I rented three movies--'Dream Girls,' 'Because I Said So,' and 'The Pursuit of Happyness'--from the store to try and catch up on all the movies I missed out on.

I only discovered the wonderful joys of NetFlix during Spring Break, and I'll definitely be renewing my NetFlix subscription come fall semester. Maybe. I just hope it doesn't negatively affect my GPA because I know all the drinking and partying will. Oh boy.

Hoy, Pinoy Ako

It was on this day one hundred and nine years ago when General Emilio Aguinaldo declared the Philippine Islands’ independence from Spain’s four centuries of colonial rule. The journey to our independence was a bloody and violent one, and, although we lost and reclaimed our sovereignty twice, we still have a long and tumultuous journey ahead of us.

Corruption, poverty, and countless of other problems are plaguing us nation-wide and are embedding itself into our country. It’s so appalling that hundreds of Filipinos leave our country every day in search of a better life elsewhere. Despite all these problems, I only hope that Filipinos worldwide remember where they’re from—where we came from—because it’s so easy to forget nowadays. All our problems are, after all, only a small portion of the Philippines’ long and intense history because we all have our fair share of ups and downs.

As deeply embedded as our problems have become, we all have something deeper that unites us all and defines who we are more accurately: our history, our culture, our traditions, our beliefs, and countless of other things.

Mabuhay ang Republika ng Pilipinas!

Flying First Class Up in the Sky

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Doing something for a long time doesn't mean that your initial fear for it eventually wanes. For example, take my fear of flying--I've been flying long before I could even walk but I'm still terrified of if.

My palms get sweaty, my stomach gets millions of tiny fluttering butterflies, and my heart palpitates as I wait to board the plane. I'm frozen in fear during take-off and the ascent until we reach cruising altitude, and I peer out the windows during the descent anxiously waiting for touch-down. I never unbuckle my seatbelt unless I really need to use the bathroom, even when I have the entire row of seats to stretch out and sleep on.

I hate turbulence.

Ironically enough, I love airports.

#3 Done!

Remember my list of twenty things that I must do while I'm twenty years old? Well,

3. Dive into my closet and sort out the clothes I want to give to charity

Yes, I did it! I got rid of nearly half the clothes in my closet. It didn't take as long as I thought it would because I just kept tossing everything out. It was rather liberating.

I think I'll be able to complete the following five goals before summer ends:

4. Make use of my scuba diver's license and actually go diving.
5. Finish a painting/drawing/sketch/anything artistic.
8. Get a new and completely different hairstyle.
11. Get my driver's license.
12. Go skinny dipping.

I'll definitely be well on my way of completing those twenty things if I get those aforementioned five goals done this summer.

Anyway, I'll try to remember posting 'Before' and 'After' pictures of my closet later today.

Spoiler Galore

Not really. I'm just going to share what I thought about the two movies I just watched.

Meet the Robinsons

A sibling and I were arguing over which movie to watch--Ocean's Thirteen or Mr. Bean--all the way to the ticket line. Fortunately for my mom's sanity, I suggested Meet the Robinsons, a suggestion both siblings immediately said yes to. I don't know why I even suggested the movie especially when I didn't even know what the movie was about nor had I even seen the trailer for it. Perhaps it was because I knew I was going to get my way with Ocean's Thirteen and I didn't want to be the bitchy sister... again. Oh well. I'm glad I had a momentary change of heart because I actually liked the movie!

The graphics were great. I've never been a fan of animation produced by Pixar, even the ones released by Disney, for some inexplicable reason but I'm glad with what Disney produced. The computer-generated images were just a wonderful blend of realism and... plasticism. They were just so captivating and eye-popping!

Disney definitely took a massive leap with this movie because of the technological advancement in its animation and the futuristic story-plot. However, Disney fans (like yours truly) won't be disappointed because it still has the whole distinct Disney feel to it--the happy ending, the moral of the story, and the fuzzy feeling it gives you inside!

Ocean's Thirteen

Delicious looking men? Mmm. An eye candy movie indeed!

Danny Ocean's team of (mostly) hot men execute another well-planned heist without a hitch. They steal $500 million from one of the newest, hottest, and most obnoxious casinos on the Vegas strip on its opening night. All for Reuben.

The plot is easy to follow and actually provoked a bit of laughter out of me. Although you don't really expect any of the three Ocean installments to make you laugh, you only expect them to dazzle you with its smooth and witty plans. Well, I was dazzled so my expections were met.

I was rather disappointed with the irrelevant nose Matt Damon gave himself. It wasn't very funny and, unfortunately, just compounded to his n00b role. I like Matt Damon. He's a lot "fresher" than Brad Pitt and George Clooney.

Although Ocean's Eleven elaborate grand heist is still my favourite, Thirteen is a lot better than Twelve.

Watch them both!

Vulnerability

I watched 'Ocean's Thirteen' tonight (before its official release date in the US, mind you) and 'Meet the Robinsons,' both of which I enjoyed it. However, I won't go into much details about either movies tonight because I am beyond tired and I'm doing some research and write-ups for my internship but failing miserably. Perhaps I will tomorrow.

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So I thought I was doing fine but this evening I realized that I'm actually not okay. The one person who I want to talk to about how I feel is the very person I can't talk to about how I feel. Although there are others who have offered their kindness and expressed their eagerness to help me through this I can't bring myself to talk to them because I don't want to open up to anyone anymore.

I want to tell him that I'm not okay, I want him to be able to relate to how I feel, and I want him to care. Unfortunately, you can't always have what you want. He won't care the way he used to, he won't relate to how I feel because I know he's happier without me, nor will he know that I'm not okay since I already feel so vulnerable because of him.

I'm not someone who opens up very easily. Therefore, when I do open up it means I'm comfortable with the level our relationship has progressed to but then I close up again once our relationship changes. (It doesn't matter what type of relationship it was to begin with). It's not that I no longer trust the person; I'm just overcome with the paralyzing feeling of vulnerability.

Sigh.

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My reviews on 'Ocean's Thirteen' and 'Meet the Robinsons' tomorrow!

Death to the Poetic Streak

My last couple posts have been rather poetic although it is hardly revealing of my artistic excursion's magnitude and richness. All of which was provoked by the break up. Fortunately for you (and my sanity), I'm prepared to write an entry that's irrelevant to my relationship and its misfortunes...

Shrek the Third

I only watched this at the request of my youngest sibling and it is by far the stupidest movie I've seen in a very long time. I seriously hope that they were kidding when they told us to expect Shrek 4.

The first installment had a stronger and comical but I still thought it was rather stupid... Until I watched the third one. It just lacked a strong and captivating plot so they tried to cover it up with a couple jokes here and there.

Horrible.

Free Digital Movie Camera!

Sanyo Xacti CG65. 6.0 megapixels. Shoots videos and still pictures. Free!

This is a little something that I received because Reader's Digest Asia decided to publish a photo I sent them.



The Beach

<= This wonderful beach is where I hope to be in a few weeks time with several of my friends.

Beach-bumming. Drinking. Tanning. Drinking. Diving. Snorkeling. Dancing. Relaxing.

Mmm.

The very thought of it all just puts a smile on my face.

No Regrets

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A regret I never want to have.

But I never let anyone I truly loved slip through my fingers,
they let me slip through theirs.

He lost me.